Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Music Love

As a blogger and a music lover I truly try to pour as much time as possible into this blog. Often I leave everything else in my life to the side to focus on music, not only do I love it but I lust it. Music seems to be the only escape from my reality, even when things are good I tend to pour my heart into my music. Music has been my complete escape, even a child I escaped life with music, hid from my feelings and allowed the sounds breaking through my ear buds to take over. As a young age, it was Eminem, Relient K, and many others. As a young adult, I dove into hip hop and followed artist like !MAYDAY!, Tech 9, and many others.

As I moved into the latest years of my life, I find myself finding music even more attuned to my ear, and the thought that music just may not only be what I hear from the radio. I want to take you into the day music changed my life. A day I will not forget for a long time. Now as a father I must say that music completely changed my life but nothing was amazing as my little girl, but this is the second best day ever. Almost a year and a half ago through music, I meet this red haired girl, not just any girl but someone who would change my opinion on love and life. At the time I was really hurt and going through a depression while also at my peak. Going through a break up after almost 5 years was the hardest thing I thought at that moment I would ever face in my life. I had money, I had friends, and I was that guy who could make almost anything possible. At the drop of a dime, I had artist center stage with Wakka Flakka, or sitting for drinks with !MAYDAY! and talking on one of my sites interviews. I though in a small part of me that my life was great, but in all reality, I was lost.

Through this period of loss and confusion I allowed myself to fall further and further into a depression, on the outside, I was clean and fresh with the right contacts and amazing things going on, but on the inside, the music in my soul was touched. I had never felt this way in a period so good in my life. No it was not perfect but everything was going my way.. or so I thought.

Then one night this all changed for the better, as I had entered the venue my headlining artist at the time, was playing at I was extremely on my game or so I thought. I had plans of dropping the signing of the city's anti-violence pledge on my artist and getting them in the local and Chicago papers. I had my head high and for the evening my heart as well. As Will went on Stage and Truck, and Cortez walked in I was stoked to see the show starting so smoothly, almost too smoothly. From the corner of my eye in the middle of the second song, I saw this redhead. She had brilliant blue eyes and a perfect smile. She had an Ora to her and it drove me wild. I couldn't take my eyes from hers even though she hadn't noticed me. That was the night I met the love of my life, yet at the time I hadn't known it. That was the day that music actually changed my life. Almost going on 18 months now, me and Kelly work as a team, I still blog about my music and she still is as beautiful as the day we meet, That red-haired girl, with the half bent smile and a carefree attitude, now is my fiance. I must say that all in all music has always been a solid part of my story, and it always will be.

Finding true love is like the sweet sound of Led Zepplin on the guitar plucking away on a  hot summer night, and falling in love is something you will never forget. The music in my life and my love for the music also led me to the love of my life.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Love Ya

Yuppers, every little thought counts. Hey babe your probably mad because you think I am awake and working. Welp the truth of the matter is I wanted to take a second and let you know that every little kiss matters. You make me feel whole all the time and I greatly appreciate that more than you will ever know. I know times seem hard right now but things will get better and I am so glad to have you by my side to make them better!!!!

Love ya,
B

Monday, June 13, 2016

Hey babe, you said yes. Honestly I was scared to ask you for the longest time. June 10th at 8:38 pm, 2016 will forever be one of the best days of my life. I was so lucky to have your family's help in setting up this proposal. I do not think I ever explained 100% of why I want you in my life and as my partner so here I go....

As a father and man I can offer a lot. I can work and provide, I can love and care, I can be myself and really stand out but there are a few factors I can still use to work on. Part of those changes I can make for me involve things I can not do. Others I can.

You my dear are the other half. Yes things may not always be perfect, but with you by my side I feel as if the world is our oyster.  You know how to make me smile when times are hard. You help me keep my head up when I am down. Your smile can light up an entire room within seconds. Your cuddles are amazing, your cooking is dope, yes I improperly used the word dope talking about your food, but if I could marry a woman for her food I would so say I do right now, JS. My daughter loves you, and you are a role model to her and that is huge for me. Even when times are hard you are still here and that is a true quality.

I know who you are when you let your guard down and I would never do anything to hurt that Kelly or any version of you! You make some of my quality's shine, and help me with my others. All around babe you are great!

I guess all in all I am over excited today and just sheer lucky!

Friday, June 10, 2016

Checking In babe... ILY

Dear Kelly I had a really good weekend with you and Bray. I am so happy you are so great with her. One day you will be an amazing mom. I think if we work as a team the way we do one day we will be very successful as parents to our own kiddo. I greatly appreciate you more than you will ever know! I hope we both have an amazing week love!

Thursday, May 26, 2016

So you made a facebook post today and I just wanted you to know it made my entire week. You are my heart too babe and you are perfect. Cute stuff like this really makes my heart smile. You are an amazing girlfriend and hopefully one day wife!

I really appreciate your hard work and efforts! it makes a real difference. I hope you realize that you are the most beautiful woman in the world and I appreciate you more than anything!

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Hey babe I had a lot of fun today! We went to Panther Island in Texas and it was a blast. I honestly couldent ask for a better partner or girlfriend. I have really enjoyed the last year with you and I appreciate you and what you do. I just thought with the long week we both have had I should let you know I know you have been a bit bothered on this trip. I am working hard to give you your space,a nd I appreciate the time you have spent with me.

Work is so much diffrent here but I like it. The guy's seem calmer,and its been great. I hope you enjoy the rest of our trip like I am. You are amazing!

Friday, April 22, 2016

Dallas

hey Kells were in Dalla. Im watching you eat your Ice cream, and to be honest im a bit lost. I love you more than anything, but I know I have a lot going on. I just want you to know that I love you and that you mean the word to me! I hope you have been enjoying this trip. Im so happy we have had at least some time together!